When I Was Death

Paperback Published on: 12/03/2026
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When I Was Death
tender and moving with a thrilling edge
The story follows Rosalyn who after the death of her elder sister has become a shell of her former self until one day a group of teenage girls come into th... READ MORE
Jamie Lee at Trafford Centre
When I Was Death
Tense, toxic, and messy in all the best ways
I think the most impressive thing about this book is the large cast of characters, and how each one feels fleshed out and real. Each of the girls in the gr... READ MORE
Katie from Harlow
When I Was Death
What if you could cheat death by becoming death..
I automatically read everything Alexis Henderson writes so I was intrigued by her first YA book. I found the overall plot really different to anything I’ve... READ MORE
Danielle at Waterstones Northallerton 675
When I Was Death
Love it!
I have only ever read an academy for liars by Alexis Henderson but now I will be reading everything she ever wrote. Two books of hers I’ve read and two boo... READ MORE
Hannah, Waterstones Liverpool

Synopsis

Final Destination meets House of Hollow in this haunting and lyrical speculative horror about a group of girls doing Death’s bidding in exchange for preserving their own lives.

‘The kind of story I wish I could experience for the first time all over again.’ Angela Montoya, author of A Cruel Thirst

Roslyn Volk isn’t herself any more. It’s been almost a year since her older sister, Adeline, died under suspicious circumstances, and she’s still shackled by grief. When six mysterious girls appear in town one morning, Roslyn finds herself inexplicably drawn to them, soon learning that Adeline spent her last summer with the group.

Desperate to find out what really happened to her sister, Roslyn agrees to accompany the girls on their road trip. But this strange sisterhood share an inconceivable secret. All of them have been spared from Death’s clutches and now must pay for the privilege. Gifted with Death’s touch, the girls travel the country reaping other people's souls in return for preserving their own lives.

As Roslyn becomes more entangled with the girls, in particular the group's leader Shiloh who she gravitates towards, it becomes clear there is only one way to discover the truth about her sister. She must strike her own deal with Death . . .

Praise for When I Was Death:

‘Atmospheric and achingly lyrical. When I Was Death is a tale of untamed girlhood, defiant loyalty and a relentless search for truth.’ Sophie Clark, author of Cruel is the Light

‘Henderson’s hauntingly beautiful prose explores how girlhood and grief are often intertwined. I savoured every single page.’ Cynthia Murphy, author of Win Lose Kill Die

‘Hauntingly beautiful and equally heart-wrenching, When I Was Death explores love and loss in a way that both hurts and heals. Henderson has crafted an intimate, powerful and utterly unputdownable tale.’ Channelle Desamours, author of Needy Little Things

‘A searing portrayal of girlhood, at once sparkling and violently dark. When I Was Death is thrilling and wholly original.’ Goldy Moldavsky, author of The Last Girl

‘This is girlhood at its darkest and most glittering. When I Was Death is the culty road trip fantasy of your dreams. It's horror with heart, unafraid to explore the sharp edges of friendship and sisterhood.’ Maria Meservey, author of The Ironfell Inheritance

‘Henderson’s prose glows with honesty, her characters richly textured and utterly alive.’ Abby Dewsnup, author of Rabbit Heart

‘I couldn’t put it down! When I Was Death is brilliant from start to finish.’ Abiola Bello, author of Love in Winter Wonderland

‘A beautiful exploration of grief and girlhood. Five stars. I'll be haunted by this one for a long time.’ Beth Tomlin, author of To Hell With You

Publisher information

  • Publisher: Penguin Random House Children's UK
  • ISBN: 9780241716274
  • Number of pages: 288
  • Dimensions: 197 x 129 x 19 mm
  • Interest age: From 12 years
  • Weight: 206g
  • Languages: English

Customer Reviews

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When I Was Death
Loved it!
Thank you to the publishers for this early review copy. Pleased to report that I loved it! Fabulous storyline and I really enjoyed the characters! Very ... READ MORE
Fiona Sharp
When I Was Death
Four stars!
When I Was Death by Alexis Henderson is a haunting and atmospheric YA speculative story with a seriously compelling concept. After her sister’s mysterio... READ MORE
The Secret Book Review
When I Was Death
Great YA debut!
Teenager Roslyn is existing in a sort of half life after the sudden and mysterious death of her older sister Adeline. When a car full of teenage girls arri... READ MORE
Amie
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When I Was Death
Great Concept
For me this book was a fresh and interesting take on Death and overall the story was well told. I think that the reason I didn't give this one a higher rat... READ MORE
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When I Was Death
When I Was Death by Alexis Henderson
Roslyn is deep in grief. Her beloved older sister, Adeline, died nearly a year ago, and despite being told otherwise, the pain and the heartache just won’t... READ MORE
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When I Was Death
ARC read
This book is described as final destination meets house of hollow. Which instantly drew me in. I was intrigued how this would go being a YA novel. The main... READ MORE
Tiffany Grant
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When I Was Death
Absolutely fantastic
I absolutely loved this story, The take on this is so different to anything else and it's a refreshing change.The story had me gripped and I felt myself wa... READ MORE
Stacie
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When I Was Death
A horror mystery YA Debut
I found When I Was Death to be an intriguing read. The characters are memorable, and I grew to like the group of girls. I liked the mystery element to fi... READ MORE
Katie halliday
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When I Was Death
Darkly Honest
First of all, this was my second Alexis Henderson novel, and I found a lot to love about it! A darkly honest tale of death and coming to terms with your... READ MORE
Anya Fricker
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