Blue Loop: Poems

Blue Loop is composed of poems about addiction and recovery, using meditation as a lens through which memories of loss and harm might begin to be processed and accepted. It seeks to prioritize—and demonstrate—dwelling with the self in the present moment, avoiding the tendency to do what those in the recovery community call future tripping: our innate, strong desire to visit things not yet come to pass through the mode of anxious attachment. In fact, these poems are against attachment, in the Buddhist sense, accepting and appreciating the beneficial gifts of calm from loved ones and community of all kinds but in search of release from the need to rely on such connections completely. Therefore, often, they are lonely poems.

Despite searching for connection, the speaker remains most faithful to—and finds grounding in—the self. The goal of Blue Loop is to provide potential strategies and modes of thought for readers navigating any form of recovery or in search of more balanced being.